Football Epilogue

I've come to the realization over the last couple of months that I had a substantial amount of workout fatigue. Not so much from working out, but from going to the discount gym and making working out an end-of-the-day priority. Frankly, I crave the amenities of a full-service gym. Namely, swimming, racquetball and free weights beyond dumbbells (the discount gym was very machine oriented, which I take to be the minimization of liability). I also recall enjoying working out on my way to work, it left me awake...or at least alert. After some shopping around I found the local YMCA   was having a special with no enrollment and the kids are free until the new year. Upon going entering the club, the ladies at front the counter even seemed to remember me with a "welcome back" and a "good to see you again". I'm hoping I'm starting to hit another stride. It will also be nice to bring the kids into the club to do some swimming and introducing them to racquetbal...

Doldrums, a bedreadded part of a sailing journey (near the equator) where the wind is non-existant/calm, or unpredictable. Colloquially, I've hit the workout doldrums. I've hit the dietary doldrums. I feel like at the beginning of the week I gather some traction. I run several miles. I lift. I do an ok job eating right. The end of the week seems to bring a severe case of apathy. To much junk food is procured and my good feelings that started earlier in the week have diminished. There's plenty of physical activity to be had with the ditch digging and rock breaking I do around the house. I sweat. I huff and puff. I get dirty. Without the structure though I don't entirely feel the same satisfaction as with a structured program.  All I can ask is what is holding me back at the moment? Where is my motivation? There are a lot of reasons to go kick some proverbial butt, but I'm struggling to feel it. Maybe it's time to change gyms? Maybe it's time to find a ...